stop crying

lately . . its getting worst . . there must be sumthing wrong . .
and
i won't pretend that i'm okay
yesterday
hangout with my old friends. of course it fun,even i'm quite tired driving all day
we having lunch together - KFC , watching movie - KONGSI
story so much things , laughing all day
BUT
behind the smile , i noe there was smthing wrong with me . i can't sleep soundly
TODAY
i was crying suddenly on my bed , i dunno what it is ! GOSH .
i'm realize , even i'm look cool my heart wasn't cool as it could
so sad to leave this home , for quite long time ?
the place where i was having my childhood . where so much things happend in my life .
HOWEVER
there was nothing anymore here . its like been chasing out .
no wonder i was crying to leave soon
i dunno where other place , i'm so sad . .
DAD ,
so much i need to say , been lonely since the day , the day we having a conflict
i felt i already loss my best friend , i'm so sad . . . we're letting go of smthing special . .
i remember the day i'm trying to have a talk with you , then we start ignoring each other till today
and i'm realize i'm already loss you . . . .

sorry for that